{"id":8098,"date":"2021-10-03T21:46:08","date_gmt":"2021-10-04T02:46:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sixburnersue.com\/cooking-fresh-eating-green\/?p=8098"},"modified":"2021-10-03T21:46:08","modified_gmt":"2021-10-04T02:46:08","slug":"the-necessary-art-of-lollygagging","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sixburnersue.com\/cooking-fresh-eating-green\/2021\/10\/the-necessary-art-of-lollygagging\/","title":{"rendered":"The Necessary Art of Lollygagging"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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THE BUSIER<\/span><\/strong> I get, the more stress I\u2019m under, the more I tend to dive into molasses when I get some downtime. It is almost comical watching myself waste time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The last three weekends have been full-on with travel to Delaware, two weddings to attend, and work duty this weekend at the first annual\u00a0Martha\u2019s Vineyard Oyster Fest<\/a>. (I played Vanna White on the culinary stage, chatting with chefs as they demo-ed.) The event was pleasant enough, but being \u201cup\u201d for several hours is exhausting, I find, and since my free time has been so limited, I\u2019ve been starting to feel an intense need to crawl into my comfy little crab shell. Plus, it\u2019s October \u2013 isn\u2019t the busy season supposed to be over?!!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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To be perfectly clear, it\u2019s not that I\u2019m so much busier than the next person \u2013 I\u2019m surrounded by colleagues who bust their you-know-whats seven days a week \u2013 but I know my limits. As a recovered alcoholic, I\u2019ve learned to recognize when I need to depressurize.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yet I also recognize that I am a world-class ditherer, capable of going down any rat hole, and staying there for quite some time if I am finding reality too noisy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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The other day I took my walk in the morning, alone, in order to fit it into a busy day. What was supposed to be a quick turn or two around a nearby field slowed gradually to a wander as I fell into the lure of wildflowers (asters of every kind) and berries (Autumn olives) and blue sky. The walk took twice as long as it was supposed to.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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My favorite distraction of course is to go into the garden with my camera (you knew that). The dahlias are, at long last, proving why they are worth the wait. As I mentioned\u00a0a few weeks ago<\/a>,\u00a0the garden is like a cocoon now, woven tight by pole bean vines. Inside it feels a bit like being Charlie in the chocolate factory.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

If there were a handy portable endorphin meter, you could easily see the dopamine spreading throughout my body when I\u2019m in the garden. I feel it physically. In some ways, this is a little disappointing, as it reminds me of how I run at somewhat depleted levels the rest of the time. But it is also a mild and healthy high that does not involve illicit substances \u2013 like ice cream (every recovered addict\u2019s favorite vice).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I have been off the ice cream for weeks, but found myself with a pint of Ben and Jerry\u2019s Salted Caramel Core Friday night late. You can shelve this under the immediate gratification category \u2013 it doesn\u2019t really offer much benefit beyond that while also producing (mild) guilt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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The last and perhaps best place I go is into my comfy reading chair. One of the tangible ways I can tell that I\u2019ve been pressed lately is the growing piles of magazines, newspapers and books that are next to my chair \u2014 and spilling over my bedside table as well as creeping around the living room and breakfast room.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have been stubbornly adding to these piles for weeks. I was at\u00a0Bunch of Grapes<\/a>\u00a0<\/strong>bookstore signing\u00a0my cookbooks<\/a>\u00a0the other day and came home with Louise Penny\u2019s new mystery (The Madness of Crowds<\/a>) and Richard \u00a0(The Overstory<\/em>) Powers\u2019\u00a0Bewilderment<\/a>, and I put Colson Whitehead\u2019s\u00a0Harlem Shuffle\u00a0<\/a>on order. I bought a slow-cooker magazine and a fall gardening magazine at the grocery store.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Glancing at the excess this weekend, I realized the piles are a passive-aggressive message to myself, a not-so-subtle manifestation of a little resentment growing towards all the time-takers (I don\u2019t discriminate \u2013 they are all on my list!). Resentments are about the unhealthiest emotion you can have as an addict. As\u00a0Anne Lamott<\/a>\u00a0says, \u201cResentment is like eating rat poison and waiting for the rat to die.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Time to do something about that. Last night I sat in my comfy chair (without ice cream) and started in, first putting all the shopping catalogues in one pile (mindless! fun!), next the quick-to-read alumnae magazines (which turn out to not be so quick to read), the gardening mags, the cooking mags, the latest publications from my own company, the odd\u00a0New Yorker\u00a0<\/a>I\u2019ve snatched from my partner\u2019s piles (there is an entire table devoted to\u00a0New Yorker<\/em>s), and then the books. The flower books, the books of gardening essays, the new novels, the partially read ones.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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The simple act of organizing the piles was soothing. Stacking the spent catalogues and magazines next to the back door was a relief.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And doing some actual reading? Completely absorbing, in the best way.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Now if I could just master the art of going to bed early, rather than indulging myself in epic reading jags. Ha \u2014 good luck Susie!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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